I can hardly believe that today was our last full day here in Cambodia. It has been an incredible trip energized by love and covered by all your prayers. The last two days we've spent in a beach town called Sihanouk Ville debriefing over all the experiences we had during this trip. Mrs. Schoon gave us a few hours of solo time and I quickly found my self crawling out to one of the rocks surrounded by the fresh ocean water. It was so nice to be sitting there with the waves splashing against the rock, the peace of the secluded beach, and of course the beautiful sky stretching off into the distance. I can't tell you how nice it was to have that time to just think and process what I have seen and heard during this trip. It's not every day that you encounter poverty and brokenness face to face. And it's not every day that you see the hurting past of a country carried into the present. As a team we've been able to discuss what will happen once we arrive back in Tianjin and how hard it is to leave when we do still see the hurt. We were asked to journal some pretty tough questions during our solo time, and Mrs. Schoon asked me if I could blog what I wrote. So I hope you enjoy reading pieces from what I wrote during my solo time as well as some after-thoughts.
What did you learn about yourself and how you see people?
The people that I saw and met on this trip always seemed to remind me of people I already know. At first it was hard to see and understand that they were truly being trafficked. But slowly I began to see things. One girl in particular really struck me. While driving down the road in our tuk-tuk we saw one of the girls we met at the Wat. This time she was far different. She was driving down on a moto behind a man, her head down limp because of the heroine she was on. She looked so desperate...so used. It was like the girl full of energy and openness was just gone. Like she wasn't really there.
We sat there watching the moto drive off, without words. What could we do? Pray.
I think to a certain extent, because of the struggles I've been through I see people equally and with value that God has given them. I know they are so precious to Him. I see them with HOPE in mind. I know that God is enough. I think of Seenat and how he knew that God wanted him to live in a place that was poor. How he became thin from only eating lotus from behind their house. But God was enough for him, and He provided. He is hope. And He loves this girl so much.
A significant experience:
Praying for people at the village was really neat. It was cool that we were invited into their lives in that way. Praying with them cemented in my mind how God is the God of all. He heals all diseases no matter big or small. Despite all of the cultural differences, He is what we have in common. He brings us together.
What were three hard things that you experienced during this trip?
Seeing all of the heartache was really hard. But I also really struggled with some questions and thoughts.
I think of my testimony and how different it is from their stories. It almost made me feel selfish. As I look forward to what I will do in life, there seems like there is such a need in Cambodia. Should I give up what I felt originally felt called to do because there seems more of a need here? Maybe I shouldn't counsel TCK's who are going through tough situations? But as Kelly and I talked we discussed how hurt is hurt. God will guide me right on the path He has for me. I found Psalms 138:6-8 really helpful.
"Though the Lord is on high he looks upon the lowly, but the proud he knows from afar. Though I walk in the midst of trouble you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me. The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me"
It was hard for me to see how people could hurt people in such a terrible way. Something I think I still need to process even as I go back home to China.
And as I go home, it's hard for me to come back to what now seems like luxury. It's really hard to know what to do miles upon miles away. Alicia shared three things Becki encouraged her to do.
1. Pray for what you've seen
2. Think about purchases
3. Raise awareness
4. Sponsor financially
5. Think of things you can do where you are.
(maybe this can encourage you too even after reading this blog! :)
Did you see God at work in Cambodia. If so, how?
I absolutely loved answering this question because there was so much to write. 100% YES! There were so many NGO's here in Cambodia. It was so awesome to also see that they were really supporting the men, women, and children, through not only financial support and jobs, but good Christian counseling. I really saw God at work in Chab Dai as well, because that organization really helped bring people back together, letting all the NGO's work with each other. The staff and leaders in all the places we went were amazing. They were so focused on God and could love the kids so well. Knowing that their work continues as we leave is such a blessing because I know that God is working through them and they have things under control. Going to the churches was also amazing because of the light that just burst through those places.
With all of this in mind, there is HOPE in Christ. He is in control in Cambodia. He is just amidst this injustice, and he is all-powerful. He is always enough and in Him we are more that conquerors. "Let justice roll down like a river" (Just-tees, our team tee)
Just as I have loved
Friday, June 29, 2012
Last set of pictures.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Close to the end.
We are now done with our service time and have come to the beach to debrief all that we have seen and done. I find myself wondering how do I debrief these girls..... let alone myself. How do I get past the sadness of seeing the 16 year old prostitute, who Jenny and I took into our mother hearts a year ago, on the back of a moped, high and totally out of it. I can tell myself that I am really not seeing her right there in front of me being taken to be sold. But it would be a lie. We were just on our way to buy tee shirts at a shop and she came past our tuk tuk. I wanted to jump out and grab her and take her to a safe place. I wanted to scream and push the man off his moped in front of a car. I wanted to break down and cry for the her.
Then that night we went to a couples house who live right in the center of the garment factory area. Such joy and hope at their house. They live and breath bringing freedom to the girls from this area. They open their house, give their food, time and love to anybody who walks through their door. We brought food for 100 and saw God multiply it to feed150. Kids who sat still and listened, and responded to love pouring out of Rotha, who herself had worked in factories and knows their horrors.
Low to High. High to Low.
The village where Vonny lives and desires to see the kids have hope in their future. He stood in front of the church and made them all laugh and smile in spite of their hard lives. We were welcomed into a home there, and were fed and given the families beds. I was so proud of my team. What a stretch for them. 90 kids in a small open air church who do not speak their language, but they poured out love even though it was a hot and crazy morning.
The pain of hearing about the 12 year old girls who are sold early to make sure they are still virgins and can go for a higher price. How do you debrief that????? But the hope you feel when you visit and organization called Chab Dai, that works hard to bring these girls justice. There is no clock for some of them in their day. No quitting time. If they need to work till 11:00pm they do it. What amazing people!!!
The Grace and Peace Gals who work everyday in this hot and sticky climate to bring education to the children of Svay Pak. They endure all and more that I have seen but I get to fly away and they will stay to continue the fight.
Seeing hundreds of family members at the airport to say goodbye to their young adult children who are going to South Korea to work as farmers and manual laborers and will not come home for 4 years. They are only hoping that their children will be treated well. They have no real idea. There have been many stories of those who think they will be getting jobs only to become slaves. We stopped by the airport to get ice cream and were caught in the human wave as they cried and said goodbye.
This hit home to me because in 1 month I will be saying goodbye to my daughter, but for her the unknowns are so so small, and Lord willing I will see her at Christmas after a mere 3 months of being apart.
Please pray for us as we spend these next two days in quiet times, taking, thinking and maybe even crying. The girls have been wonderful and they have worked so hard and given so much. I am so blessed to have led them on this trip.
Keli
Then that night we went to a couples house who live right in the center of the garment factory area. Such joy and hope at their house. They live and breath bringing freedom to the girls from this area. They open their house, give their food, time and love to anybody who walks through their door. We brought food for 100 and saw God multiply it to feed150. Kids who sat still and listened, and responded to love pouring out of Rotha, who herself had worked in factories and knows their horrors.
Low to High. High to Low.
The village where Vonny lives and desires to see the kids have hope in their future. He stood in front of the church and made them all laugh and smile in spite of their hard lives. We were welcomed into a home there, and were fed and given the families beds. I was so proud of my team. What a stretch for them. 90 kids in a small open air church who do not speak their language, but they poured out love even though it was a hot and crazy morning.
The pain of hearing about the 12 year old girls who are sold early to make sure they are still virgins and can go for a higher price. How do you debrief that????? But the hope you feel when you visit and organization called Chab Dai, that works hard to bring these girls justice. There is no clock for some of them in their day. No quitting time. If they need to work till 11:00pm they do it. What amazing people!!!
The Grace and Peace Gals who work everyday in this hot and sticky climate to bring education to the children of Svay Pak. They endure all and more that I have seen but I get to fly away and they will stay to continue the fight.
Seeing hundreds of family members at the airport to say goodbye to their young adult children who are going to South Korea to work as farmers and manual laborers and will not come home for 4 years. They are only hoping that their children will be treated well. They have no real idea. There have been many stories of those who think they will be getting jobs only to become slaves. We stopped by the airport to get ice cream and were caught in the human wave as they cried and said goodbye.
This hit home to me because in 1 month I will be saying goodbye to my daughter, but for her the unknowns are so so small, and Lord willing I will see her at Christmas after a mere 3 months of being apart.
Please pray for us as we spend these next two days in quiet times, taking, thinking and maybe even crying. The girls have been wonderful and they have worked so hard and given so much. I am so blessed to have led them on this trip.
Keli
Monday, June 25, 2012
A night in the village.
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Go slow and move the tarps!
Prepping the wall for painting. |
Christy working hard! |
Alicia working hard too! |
We wrote praises and verses in the walls before we painted. |
snack time. :) |
All done and all blue. |
Painted toes. |
Job well done girls! |
A well deserved burger at Mikes. Yes, Bria and Michaila did finish a whole one of the above. |
Alicia's thoughts on painting. :)
Besides being savagely attacked (cough,
cough) by the 2 giant cockroaches I encountered in my bathroom, I have
been so thankful that the Lord allowed me to come on this trip! I have SO
enjoyed the girls – their insights and their silly-nesses, and the balance we
have established as a team. They’re great.
Yesterday was an easier day for us, at least mentally. We
were given the honor of painting the teacher workroom at Agape’s Rahab House.
What was formally a bubble-gum pink room was transformed into a refreshing,
baby blue. The walls were cleansed of the gecko poo (at least for a few hours,)
and the floors were scrubbed as never before.
Ahha! But, before you think too kindly of us, this resulted
not from our desire to serve, but because of our haste in painting. (hehe)
We decided that since the number of painting bodies (8)
out-weighed the number of available tarps (1 cut up into 3 pieces,) it would be
faster if we just left the tarps and wiped up the paint drips after we
finished.
WRONG
After several hours of breathing fumes, --which we filled
with fighting to break into 2 paint tubs (one inflicting a bloody wound on
Keli’s thumb); writing declarations of God’s goodness on the walls as a
reminder of Who owns the building, the work, and the people; singing songs,
hymns, and various silly songs to one another; the occasional “surprise” paint
attack, and the (through it all) continued, diligent work ethic -- we realized
the lesson of the day:
Go slow and remember to move the tarps!
While we sat scrubbing on the floor for an extended period
of time we learned that even though it may have taken us a few extra minutes,
it would have saved us many minutes if we had slowed down and used the tarps to
protect the floors.
Hmmm….
Spiritual application?
(It may be a stretch, but I’ll reach for it anyways…)
“Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take
courage; wait for the Lord!” Psalm 27:14
Just as we discovered our need for the tarp in the (more
efficient) painting process, we must depend and wait on the Lord for the godly
and effective process of life. When we rebel and try to do life on our own –
our “floor” gets messy. We find the consequences take us much longer to work
through than if we had waited on the Lord.
I think the same can be said for trying to comprehend what
we see happening in Cambodia. After we finished painting (and scrubbing,) the
Grace and Peace Gals drove us around the village of Swey Pak. I had never seen
such poverty except on TV. We saw the fiery brick kilns where children and
parents work in the heat to bake their allotment of bricks. We saw the stick
huts in which they live and we saw the fields they go through to get to school
at the risk of being abused by the gangs or other people loitering there. This
is Cambodia.
How to clean it?
We see that money cannot fix these problems. Education alone
cannot fix these problems. Teaching them how to be “good” and “productive”
cannot solve these problems. It’s a spiritual battle and they need Jesus.
“For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is
from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be
shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is
God.” (Psalm 62:5-7)
But, praise the Lord! He has not abandoned them. The Gals
also took us around the “village center” to show us the wonderful ministries
Agape has established for children, women, and men. They have a school where
children can learn, live, and be loved. They have a training center for girls
who have been trafficked and are now being taught how to sew clothes, and they
showed us a gym where men can come and be body builders.
The whole team has struggled with questions of, “How can
this be?!” How can there be such
disparity between the expats (us) and them? The rich and the poor? A pretty
safe and comfortable life to a life that has been filled with pain? What can we
do?
Put down the tarp and trust knowing that He sat enthroned at
the Flood and He sits as King forever. He is working now in their hearts and He
will continue to work. His heart longs for the orphan and the widow. He loves
them more than we can comprehend.
“Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before
Him, God is a refuge for us. […] power belongs to God, [and] steadfast love.
For You will render to a man according to his work.” (Psalm 62:8, 11-12)
Please remember to be praying for the teachers at Rahab’s
House. They just hired 12 new people and many of them were not aware of the
trafficking situation in Cambodia. They are also learning new teaching methods.
So tough!
Pray for Jenn, Rachel, and Kim as they make decisions about
planning and training the teachers.
Pray for the children of the village – three girls in
particular – who recently testified in court about men in the village who
openly traffick children. Their case has not yet closed. It will soon, but both
groups are still living in the village.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Last day at HPC
Borey, pointing to his name way up at the top! :)
Our team and the AMAZING HPC staff
Today was our last day at the Boys Center and the Wat. I can't believe how fast these last 3 days have gone, but each day was stuffed with exciting events. I have to admit, I'm exhausted but it's worth it, teaching English in the morning and playing with street kids in the afternoon. They all really stole my heart, from the boys repeating "floor" over and over again and still not pronouncing it right, to the little girl who told me I smelled bad. Every single kid was adorable and I'm dumbfounded to think that they might be loved less than they should be, but when I see how much the HPC staff loves them and plays with them, I feel a little better.
But really, this week has been an amazing, especially at the Wat. When I'm playing with street kids and teaching them how to make puppets or something with yarn, their smiles are simply unforgettable. Seeing bursts of joy coming out of their sorrowful eyes, I can only thank God for using the team and I to spread His light. It truly is a blessing just to be with them and do something simple, like twirl the jump rope for them or help them fit their lego-like blocks together. I think I may even enjoy it as much if not more than they do. Although they're all coming from hard situations, I have faith that God's moving in their lives,
Michaila
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Some Great Pics!
Tired girls. I am so proud of them. They are working so hard! |
The boys center where we teach English for 3 hrs in the morning. |
A mid day treat. :) Ice cream! |
The park where we have kids club. We use this pavilion to meet, play games, do crafts and bible lessons. |
View from pavilion. |
Another crazy Alicia picture. She really can juggle. |
Out tuk tuk driver and now friend. We warned him we would get a picture of him sleeping!! :) |
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